Now and then I think of when we were together From birth until Adulthood
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die I thought you enjoyed being with me. I really thought you didTold myself that you were right for me I believed that I did good job of taking care of you.
But felt so lonely in your company I knew you needed space. I could give you space. But that was love, and it's an ache I still remember An emptiness I could never run away from.
You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadnessLike resignation to the end, always the endSo when we found that we could not make senseWell, you said that we would still be friends But I'll admit that I was glad it was over I never wanted it to end. I was ok with change.
But you didn't have to cut me off And you did. You just cut me off.Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing Like I wasn't your mom. Like I didn't deserve you.And I don't even need your loveBut you treat me like a stranger, and that feels so rough When I see you at a track meet and you ignore me. When you drive away without even a wave. When you ignore your siblings.No, you didn't have to stoop so lowHave your friends collect your records and then change your number Send me your phone and gifts I sent you.I guess that I don't need that, thoughNow you're just somebody that I used to know Calvin
Now you're just somebody that I used to know Christopher
Now you're just somebody that I used to know I wish I was dead then having to go through this.
Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over I did everything I could to be good to you. I listened to your secrets. I supported you. I was there for you 100% I supported you in everything.But had me believing it was always something that I'd done I APOLOGIZED! I DESERVE FORGIVENESS!!
And I don't wanna live that wayReading into every word you say EVERY WORD. Hoping you'll come back to me.You said that you could let it goAnd I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know
But you didn't have to cut me off BLock me on everything.Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing (aah-ooh)And I don't even need your love (ooh)But you treat me like a stranger, and that feels so rough (aah) I'm your MOTHER not a STRANGER.No, you didn't have to stoop so low (ooh)Have your friends collect your records and then change your number (aah)I don't even know your number.I guess that I don't need that, thoughNow you're just somebody that I used to know I'll always be the stump. Always here. Waiting. Maybe someday you'll be someboday in my life again.
